Happy 2018! I hope and pray the holiday season was one of rest and restoration for all of you. I must say, my 2017 ended a whole lot better than it began. I cannot say I'd ever want to re-live the first half of 2017. It was incredible growth at best and very painful at worst. My marriage of 8 years officially ended one day shy of what would have been our 8 year wedding anniversary. We separated over the spring and my life as I knew it was completely turned upside down. But, I do not regret my decision to walk away from a relationship that was full of control and oppression. My days were filled with fear I'd disappoint my spouse or do things "wrong." After walking on eggshells for years, I decided I'd had enough. Not only for myself and the sake of my own sanity, but for my daughter as well. My goal as a mother has always been to provide a life for her that is one of empowerment and love and positive thoughts. I get to do that now and it is worth every single stressful moment over the past year.
Of course, I'm not advocating divorce. However, when your spouse isn't holding up their end of the bargain and you're basically parenting 'a la solo,' then tough decisions must be made. Unfortunately, single parenting was exactly where I'd been for 5 years. It was time to move on and allow myself an opportunity to be truly happy with a partner who wants to be with me and is actually present in my life. A spouse on paper does not a spouse make. Making memories together for a lifetime is what I signed up for. Unfortunately, that is far from what I got. But, I realized... I didn't have to just settle for that. I could walk away. This is my life, my story. And my little girl will look to it as a road map for her own life. I want her road map to be one of a strong woman who lived her life and not the life others told her she ought to live or a life endured. No. We get ONE chance. One. And I intend to live it to the fullest and surround myself only with positive and loving people... partner included.
2018 is a fresh start. I have a lot of plans to make this one a year for the history books! Celebrate with me and live your best life!